12/25/2012, 01:04 AM
this is strictly a venting session to try to decompress from another very long and arduous attempt to keep webOS in my life. i don't recommend reading it, it's more just for me to try to empty out some stress.
it seems the harder i try, the harder it is to find success with these phones. i get to a point where i want to find the answers to solve the problems, but simply cannot sort the information any longer, and then i have to back away. but i can't back away; it's my phone; it has to work.
i've had a Pre since the day they came out. i went through the hardware issues of old history; and never really had much issue with swapping one phone for another, through the course of 7 phones. i just loved webOS that much, that it was worth the minor hassle, and that's why there's replacement coverage available to buy.
when HP bailed on webOS, i really was upset; why did they even buy the damn company? ugh i so wish ANYONE else had bought it; at least anyone who'd have committed to building phones and not just throwing everything in the trash. sure, there's this super-secret Gram thing; but it's not doing anything for us anytime soon, so it's irrelevant until it does. meanwhile, every other phone-related company is moving forward with technology, and the technology is moving completely away from the direction that the Pre was. and when i say that, i mean this:
hm. i dont know why this image isn't displaying either. i thought that's how you do tags for forums. jeez i am so tech illiterate. today was my first day on IRC even. i guess this is what getting old does to ya. everything seems more complex while everyone around you is saying it's easier than ever. well, i attached it at the bottom. it's just a picture i spent a few mins working on, so i wanted to post it. seems the only skills i have are in MS Paint. and even the Win7 version is more difficult than XP's. why???
but anyway, the primary reason why i loved webOS was because it was able to do so much, without asking very much in return. it was INTUITIVE, like it new what i wanted, or what type of gesture i'd think to make, before i did. you want to close an app, you just swipe it up and away! brilliant!
but now it seems the ease of use is gone. in fact, for me it feels like to continue to use webOS i have to become a programming master. which i am not. i'm an old man, who's had a lot of serious head injuries and i don't know how i'm not dead yet from any one of them.
right now i have about a dozen tabs open from webosnation and webosinternals. i've been reading all day. application save/restore, application metadoctor, cross platform meta guide, preware for dummies, etc. there's SO much information, there's too much. info that's been superceded and made obsolete. info with the first post updated; info with the last post most current, and 57 pages in between, with some having the critical insight at post #234.
i can't keep up anymore. i feel like i'm drowning. i've asked for help, but the people that are still here are either busy with openwebos, or they're just not here anymore cuz they moved on; making me feel like i'm clinging to a dream i woke up from, and i want to go back.
it reminds me of a Buffy the Vampire Slayer episode. i never watched that show, but i did catch one episode that i thought was slick: essentially she woke up from a coma in which she was only dreaming the whole vampire slaying lifestyle. in the end, somehow she went back to the 'reality' that we knew, and the show maintained continuity. but am i trying to fight a battle i can't win? am i now too incompetent to stay with webOS, because you have to be a meta-doctoring pro?
when people say they've written their own meta-doctors, it blows my mind. i dont even know where to find the regular doctors, except through the HP site when you put in the serial number. and tonight i just tried to put in the serial for my Pre-, and it just kept looping back to the 'choose your model' page. the last word of the URL just said 'sorry'. really??
so i've got a franken pre2 that is acting too buggy to be happy using. it will not locate, let alone install, pandora, even though several people have checked and told me 'oh yeah, it's right there'. and the Pre- is in some zombie state worse than sim-sos devmode state, i'm guessing because it's cdma. it says phone offline, but with wifi on it will websurf. but it won't login to the palm profile, it won't log into the app catalog, and with wifi on for the last hour it's been stuck in 'checking for updates'.
i dont know if i should re-doctor them both, and if so which doctor, and what else can i do? git pull? make clobber? how do i do those? through WOSQI? through ubuntu?
it all makes me feel like an *****. like i have to go to android because i'm just too stupid to make webOS work. which SUCKS. i like webOS i dont want to learn anything else. my brain doesn't receive new information like it used to. i used to be really freakin' smart. now i'm literally shocked that my MRI last month did not turn up a grapefruit tumor in my skull, which would have actually made me breathe a sigh of relief, as a reason why i've become so stupid. maybe i'm getting alzheimer's or something like that? hm. hadn't thought of that yet.
i dont know. it's christmas, which sucks as it is, since i ate almost everything in the house today while reading this site since 9am, and forgot that it will be difficult to find food tomorrow with most places closed for the holiday. just another thing to make me feel like a moron.
hopefully no one is reading this, i just wanted to vent. i know i couldve typed it on a page and deleted it, but there's something about shouting it out the window to the world that makes me feel like i'm really getting it off my chest and not just screaming in an echo chamber. it's either speak out loud, or become invisible.
if anyone has read this, well i hope you're not feeling a similar way; and if so, just know that someone sympathizes with ya. and i'm not expecting replies, it's not a call for help, i just wanted to get it outta me, so i dont take it to bed with me where i'll just mull it over 'til i blame myself for anything and everything.
christmas is always a tough time. i guess i'm just trying to stay up late enough that i'll sleep through as much of it as possible. i'd rather have been happy with my new Franken, which i am kinda proud of myself for even building it; but without being able to program it to function correctly i feel like i'm just ****in away money i dont have to waste. maybe i should go back to a dumb phone, appropriate for a dumb user. i just wanted pandora to work, and now i can't install it on either phone.
ok finally i'm tired enough to go to bed. thanx, webosnation, for being here just so i had some place to go.